My handbag is huge. It is heavy. It is mandatory.
I carry emotional baggage too- we all do.
I wonder, if we could physically see the baggage we (and others) carried, would that change how we felt about them? Would it change how we acted? Would we judge? Or would we be more willing to seek therapeutic ways to jettison it? Or would we be proud of it- Those with the most being respected and revered as emotional elders, the baggage as battle scars?
What baggage do we all carry round? What goes everywhere with us?
Here is my baggage.
Contents of my handbag:
Fifteen hair grips (black)
Bunch of paper receipts
Vanity bag containing: make up brush, Nivea lip balm, paracetamol, maybelline translucent pressed face powder, clinique lipstick: new york red, chanel lip liner: red
Four fisher-price peek-a-blocks containing: smiley oyster, broccoli, boat, sandwich
One doll: Baby Alive!
Purse, multi-coloured leather
Two bottles of buxton water
One tommee tipee sippy cup, blue
Book: Maisy at Christmas!
Five lists: to do (24/07) to do (30/08), Ikea (measurements), Asda, Daisy’s birthday
Dreams bed guarantee for Original bedstead company Carrie bed (glossy ivory),
Blackberry mobile phone,
Husbands joint account debit card
Husbands cheque book
1 pair QVC diamonique earrings
3 Plum organic baby puree sachets: two spinach and basil, one raspberry and apple,
One snack box containing breadsticks,
Mr. Cloth (daisys special blanket comforter)
1 pack Huggies baby wipes
2 pampers baby dry nappies, size 4+,
1 Garmin sat nav (lent by jenny) and charger
Book: Making Cocoa for Kingsley Amis by Wendy Cope
87p loose change
Contents of my Emotional Handbag:
Evidence of a heart once broken, now healed
A fear of maths lessons
Shame at being slow to learn to drive – passed 3rd time
Troubled relationship with father
The question: Am I a good mother?
Fatness vs. Love of cake
Debt from carefree years of full time work and ensuing self-hatred
Occasional depression and
Increasing invisibility: age and motherhood is weaker currency in this world than tits and youth
Which weighs more? Weigh your baggage: I dare you.